I'm scared I'll start again. I really want to. I have this need that recently came back. It's been almost a year and it showed up now. I don't know what to do. I need help but I don't know how to ask. I'm afraid I'll disappoint everyone. If I start again everything will be better. I'll be relaxed, and calm. I'll get more sleep. I wont be up half the night thinking if I should or shouldn't I don't know anymore.