The only reason I'm not cutting right now is cause theres no more room....

I can't handle this anymore. Too many people think I'm fine. Too many people are counting on me. Too many people are hurting me. When will this end? Will it ever end?

my father tries to control me. he can't deal with me being bisexual, studying Wicca, or just plain being MYSELF. sometimes i wish i would die. he wouldn't care. my mother does nothing. just gets drunk.

I stopped cutting. I brought the knife back downstairs and into the kitchen where it belongs. But now I feel like crying. It's a bitter-sweet victory...

So the girl i love says shes single, then she says shes taken, then she says shes single. I ask her friend to check and she says she has a boyfriend. But the girl i love says she is single. I love her so much! And now she won't talk to me! UGH! Why can't we just be together? I feel like ugh just dying...

I've only been on teenhelp for a couple days and I already feel better. Before I was confused and had no clue what to do. And I went on and I talked to someone. I unloaded everything. I feel weightless now. If only i could always feel that way...