Triggering (Suicide): Nobody to talk to

[B_IsAway]

Seeing I dont have anybody to talk to I decided maybe I'd just throw it in here. Everything always feels horrible, my parents dont love me, I dont have friends, Im too lazy to get a job, Im too ugly to get a boyfriend, Im too stupid to grow up. I'll never grow up, I'll make sure of it. Cause I'm just a stupid spoiled rich kid who always wastes everyone's time and resources. I dont care if people would be sad if I died, I dont care if they'd live with guilt, because at the end of the day Im just a horrible person and a loser. Lately everything is always about this, if someone takes a pic with me I just think of how they will look at it later when Im gone, If I say something I wonder if the person will come back to it later, if I buy something I wonder who will it go to once Im gone. At this point Im just a walking dissapointment that everyone will remember by her death, because she did nothing good in life to be remembered. And people will hate me for not trying, as they should. I had every oportunity and I wasted them because thats all I am, a parasite. This may sound agressive or delusional for someone normal and sane reading this, but it feels like a constant reality I can never escape of. Im sorry.

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I don't think that just because you are wealthy you're wasting everyone's time or resources.

Maybe you can try and make friends by joining clubs and social groups around town? I found a group of friends at a queer community in town for example, and since we had something in common it was easier to make friends with them.

With jobs it can also help if you figure out what you are passionate about and either put that into further education or a career. For example, do you like animals? Do some work with animals. You can also try volunteering if a job sounds too daunting right now because at least it wouldn't be as big of a commitment and you'd be making an impact. I doubt you'd be remembered as a disappointment though. You make an impact on the people you see. For example, I had a Dunkin cashier thank me just for treating her with kindness. So it doesn't take a lot to make a difference, at least in someone's day.

There's never a "too late" time to make a change, whether you're 16 or 60!

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Hello, I am sorry about what you have been going through and I hope that you will be okay soon. Try to Google fun things that you enjoy doing near you and see if you can join them. For example, if you like to take pictures or running or hiking or something else that you love, go and join them. They will be so happy to have you part of these groups. I hope you will be okay soon.