Triggering (SH): back to day 1

[Em0bxy]

Yesterday during school I had cut myself and panicked. I told my teacher because there was a lot of blood, and then she grabbed the nurse and guidance counselor and I stayed in the nurses office with the principal, social worker, and doctor the rest of the day. I re-wrapped my arm this morning because that's what they wanted me to do. I feel like shit for cutting myself again. Now my blades, lighters, and everything is taken away. My privacy is gone, they're going through my backpack every fucking day at school. It's so damn annoying that I have to do that everyday. I won't even make it to homeroom. Today I have a field trip too and they're doing it. I wish I could go back to the way things were where my backpack wasn't being searched by the fucking school and I could make it to class in time without a morning check in and I could stay until the end of the day without an end of the day check in. God I hate it so fucking much. My arm burns too. Nothing is fucking right anymore. My parents found out Im cutting again. Lord nothing could be worse than that. I want to be normal again...help...

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Hello,

I am sorry that this happened to you and I hope that you will be okay soon. The next time you feel like this try to do something to help you get your mind off of this for a while. Try playing a game or reading or watching funny TV shows or going for a walk or something else that you enjoy for a while. If you are at school and you feel like this, try talking to one of your teachers or the school counselor and let them know how you are feeling. I hope you will be okay soon.