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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
Re: Screaming thread. -
August 27th 2013, 11:41 PM
"After all he's done for you guys." After all he's done? He's been emotionally abusive all of these years. They fucking knew, do you get that?? STOP IT. Just stop, please. Don't pretend to be this great person that you're not. You can't see what an asshole you are.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Screaming thread. -
August 28th 2013, 05:47 PM
Why don't you just ship my f***ing book instead of extending the delivery estimate another 3 weeks when I needed it for school 2 DAYS AGO! Hope the bookstore has it by tomorrow like they said they would because I'll have to get it from them instead!
"She was a really nice lady, she just didn't like you." Okay, THANK YOU! I was starting to think it was me. I thought that wasn't allowed here. What happened to unconditional positive regard? I have to have it to be in the profession, but she doesn't and there's no reason for her not to. What the Hell?
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; August 28th 2013 at 11:53 PM.
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August 29th 2013, 05:51 AM
I'm so fucking pissed off. I have no patience for this. I'd give you more advice if you actually took what I have to say into consideration. I go through this all the time. I'm giving up. I can never make anyone happy, can I? So why try.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Screaming thread. -
August 29th 2013, 05:21 PM
What RITE do you have to act like nothing happened? YOU BETRAYED OUR FAMILY, YOU THOUGHT ABOUT GIVING US UP LIKE WE MEANT NOTHING TO YOU, YOU LIED TO US ALL AND ALL YOUR FRIENDS KNEW YET WE DIDN'T, THAT YOU WERE HAVING THIS AFFAIR WITH YOUR FUCKING EX-BOYFRIEND. WHAT...are you stupid? Obviously.....
Don't be fucking surprised when I NEVER look at you again.
Re: Screaming thread. -
August 30th 2013, 01:49 AM
Every time my mom complains about me to my dad, she always makes herself seem like the good guy.
Yeah, sorry mom, no one is buying that BS.
"Don't tell me you're not beautiful. You're the kind of beautiful the blind would see if we could figure out some way to give them three seconds of sight." -- Shane Koyczan
Re: Screaming thread. -
August 31st 2013, 02:19 AM
No, you don't have to fucking disagree with everything i say! We think different but that doesn't mean that your opinion is the best fucking one.
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Location: With God on the corner of First and Amistad
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Re: Screaming thread. -
August 31st 2013, 04:28 PM
Why are you being so nice to the freshman? Like I get it, they're new to the school but still. Kids forgetting their flip folders and you say its okay. People without their hair up during performance time. And you let him play when he wasn't even at practice on Wednesday!?! He's the rudest kid out of our marching band! He didn't even have black shorts or black socks. He made the band look stupid. No offense to freshman out there, but you've got to realize this is high school you can't forget everything and always think its okay. And when we are marching in from the football field.. we are in block formation at all times! There is no talking! I really wasn't too happy with the first game this year at all, can we all just please try to do better next time and come prepared? I don't want to have to be embarrassed again because of what a freak show we were. Equal spacing flutes! Don't leave me with 12 feet on each side of me, you people have to scoot closer. And our diamonds and W's look terrible.. again scoot closer. :/
~I was always scared of everything, even the carousel.~
~Don't worry about me. I'm sort of feeling fine, but by tomorrow, I'll be back on my feet again.~
Re: Screaming thread. -
August 31st 2013, 09:01 PM
Let me get this straight. It's NOT unprofessional for her to dislike me for no reason, it's NOT unprofessional for her to let her dislike of me for no reason show to the point that my friends can tell, and it's NOT unprofessional for her to let her dislike of me possibly affect her objective grading of my skills and work, but it IS unprofessional for ME to respond to the fact that she dislikes me for no reason and that it may be unfairly affecting my grades. Yeah, THAT makes sense! How is it that she can do and say whatever the hell she wants and I'M the one who ends up paying the price for it? How is it that HER actions end up reflecting poorly on ME and affecting MY future while she gets NO consequences WHATSOEVER?!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Re: Screaming thread. -
August 31st 2013, 11:05 PM
There's no point in trying anymore.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 2nd 2013, 08:09 PM
I often wonder why I'm still here. My silent screams have become faint whispers.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
The axe forgets, but the tree remembers
Last edited by hocus pocus; September 2nd 2013 at 08:58 PM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 5th 2013, 07:35 AM
I'm trying, so hard. But it isn't enough I'm so tired, but I can't sleep. I'm in complete shock. I can't fucking function. It's like I'm a damn zombie. This hurts. I hurt. I can't take this. I can't even talk about things anymore. I'm letting this world pass me and I can't stop.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 6th 2013, 03:39 AM
Just because I miss my dad, does not in no fucking way mean i hate you, or i don't want to be around you. I means I fucking. miss. my. dad. THATS ALL, just stop crying about it, you don't understand.
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 7th 2013, 07:12 AM
I'm scared of explaining it. I need to keep my breathing as even as I can. I can't do this anymore. I'm not that strong, not at all. I can't believe this. I mean, it's been like this, but now it's more real.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 9th 2013, 11:32 PM
I HATE MY LIFE too much to do, even if I understood what the hell I'm supposed to be doing, it's still a whole lot and since I got special permission to be in 1/3 of it I don't feel I have the right to complain after being allowed to do it. If I knew everything that was involved I seriously would've considered something else (which I know now is just as much work) or just not taken it at all and waited to take something I would've liked better. The only good thing about it is that I only have to do one class with prac instead of two.
And will someone please tell me why people I don't know and have only had one class with seem to dislike the idea of working with me already. It's not like I did anything to cause that!
Am I seriously fucking TRIGGERED right now? I thought I was done with this, but I guess not. Nothing to do, but go to bed and try to lay still until it goes away.
HELP!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; September 10th 2013 at 06:00 AM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 10th 2013, 03:56 AM
Certain songs trigger me, I need to avoid those.
Why does it have to hurt so much when someone dies? I don't understand. I want to run around and throw things and scream. I want to walk around and pretend like this doesn't affect us, that we're strong. But that's fucking impossible.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 11th 2013, 01:11 AM
EVERYONE I've talked to is assuming I'm in prac and wondering why I'm not. The reason: I am behind because of YOU and I BELONG THERE! School has officially turned from a dream to a nightmare, and I can't be with my friends anymore because they're all ahead of me now.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
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September 11th 2013, 01:21 AM
I'm happy for you. Really, seriously, I am. I mean, sure you didn't follow my advice, but you did what you wanted, and you had fun, and that's all that matters.
Except... It should have been me. And not only do I feel jealous and incredibly lonely, I also feel extremely undeserving, pathetic and spiteful for thinking that. I know that I can't use the term "Friendzone", but that's essentially where I've been for years now. I'm done.
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September 11th 2013, 02:38 AM
I will fail AP history. And they will take away my two electives for next semester. Holy fuck. No. I should never have signed up for this, of course I'm too fucking stupid! I'm too fucking stupid to do this, the teachers who told me I had potential were wrong. How disappointed everyone must be in me... I'm just waiting for them to tell me.
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September 11th 2013, 02:54 AM
So fucking triggered right now, I was going to try to make it till the concert but I can't. I don't want to but this is gonna drive me insane..
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 11th 2013, 03:46 PM
I hate this school, I hate it so fucking much! It sucks that it's the only location-convenient place on the shithole land known as Cape Cod! The professors are both incompetent, they talk for forty-eight minutes on semi-irrelevant bullshit and then try to rush through a hundred twenty seconds on the relevant topic!
Today was only the fourth day of classes for me, and I'm already thinking of ways to get "sick", and that's saying something considering how badly I want to succeed!
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 13th 2013, 06:32 AM
I wish I could help you. I wish you'd let me do something to help you.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 13th 2013, 11:46 PM
Thank God I have the weekend, I wanted to blow today. Maybe my tolerance is low or whatever but it seems like almost everyone in my classes is annoying. >.>
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September 14th 2013, 04:34 AM
Something about tonight just makes me want to give up everything. Life. Love. Everything. Because of them.... can I seriously just. Can everyone just fuck the fuck off????
I'm just. So. Done.
Do you wanna come with me? 'Cause if you do, then I should warn you - you're gonna see all sorts of things. Ghosts from the past. Aliens from the future. The day the Earth died in a ball of flame. It won't be quiet, it won't be safe, and it won't be calm. But I'll tell you what it will be: The trip of a lifetime!
Don't trust a perfect person and don't trust a song that's flawless.