Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Mindfulness.]

I hate feeling like this all the time.

[Mindfulness.]

I really hope these migraines go away soon.

[Kate*]

I FINALLY got put back on the schedule; it's supposed to be getting better, not worse. Either keeping me off the register shouldn't have been offered as the accommodation, or you need to look at what accommodation really means. Either way, you screwed that up, and I'm paying the price. Or, she doesn't like me as much as you do, and doesn't give a shit if I end up screwed. And if that's the case, you can claim it isn't personal or favoritism all you want; I wouldn't buy it.

[Mindfulness.]

I can't wait till I go overseas again. Maybe I'll stay there...

[Mindfulness.]

I hate always being in two minds.

[Kate*]

The favoritism is incredibly obvious. And either, you shouldn't have offered that as an accommodation (because you can't make it reasonably work), or someone needs to review the ADA. Because, allowing me not to do it, while reminding me of the massive favor that that is, every time I complain about my hours being low, while saying that doing it would solve the problem, is NOT what ACCOMMODATION means..

I don't know why my stomach is messed up, but it can be normal now because this sucks

And can you PLEASE TAKE THE MONEY OUT already?! I've paid the bill, now DO YOUR JOB!

[Kate*]

I won't see my favorite manager all week.

And I've been without one of my meds for days because the doctor's office wouldn't fill it, and now the pharmacy DOESN'T HAVE ANY WTF?!

I wish they bought a place in California. SoCal is so beautiful in March.

C'mon, why aren't you getting tired yet? Tomorrow's Monday! Oh, wait, I guess that's today now.

[Kate*]

I hope this pharmacy is better because the people at the other one are STUPID. HOW did I get 2 MONTHS of prescriptions when you aren't in-network?! For the MILLIONTH time, I DO NOT HAVE MEDICAID!!!!

[Mindfulness.]

The most powerful thing is the mind...

I hate how true the comment in the post above mine is.

The mind is such a dangerous thing, especially when caffeinated.

[Kate*]

Something is going on that I don't have the details of, and I don't like it. I know not everything is my business, and maybe ignorance is bliss. And that's fine, but a lack of information makes me paranoid that I won't see something bad coming in time to prepare for it.

[Mindfulness.]

When will it ever slow down?

[Mindfulness.]

I really wish life wasn't so expensive.

[Kate*]

Thanks for CLEARLY implying that I'll quit my job within a year of starting it. I've had to think about it, but I love the managers too much. And yes, there's a part of me that thinks that I'm being treated amazingly well, so it can't possibly last. But, it's working for right now, and that's good enough. And if the register isn't as bad as I feared, then I can get more hours. And if they eventually take her off the schedule, or she quits since she calls off LITERALLY EVERY SHIFT, that will free up some too.

[Mindfulness.]

I really hope it goes to plan. I'm sick of the waiting game.

[Kate*]

This is chaos for my neurodivergent brain and I fucking hate it.

WHY did I pick up a 5-hour morning shift on my DAY OFF?!

Things are changing and I don't like it. I don't know if it's just because of the change itself, or if the new direction is what I don't like. He's amazing, but I think it's starting to affect him.

[Kate*]

So, I picked up a morning shift on my day off to help you out, you weren't even there, and she complained within my earshot to someone else that I was working too slow. You either want me there or you don't, but I'm less likely to volunteer for hours when she's the manager if that's how it's going to be.

As much as I don't want to, I'll probably have to talk to you anyway to get the information and the truth. But THIS shit is why I'm PARANOID.

[Kate*]

That wasn't there when I got here, so I did what it said and he told me to hang. Not my fault.

Of course I'm running on caffeinated fumes all day and then become fully awake when I get home.

[Mindfulness.]

I'm not sure if I'm able to process all of this emotions.

[Kate*]

It's barely 11:30, and even with caffeine, I'm exhausted. But, at least I can sleep as late as I want tomorrow

I hope the 7-hour shift I picked up on the morning of my day off is a hanging shift and not markdowns, but I have a bad feeling.

[Mindfulness.]

There is always something that ruins it.

How is that not bothering anyone?

[Mindfulness.]

I just want to have more motivation.

[Kate*]

They both get the whole weekend off and I'm forced to survive insanely long shifts for the next 3 days! In theory, he gave them a break, so someone else could have the hours. And the hours are up, but that doesn't mean it doesn't suck.

I'm exhausted and I still have a 6.5 hour shift to go, then I spend my day off at the fucking eye doctor. I HATE this. Back to bed I go.

[Kate*]

So, even though I've known for AT LEAST 3 MONTHS that I need new glasses, I have to either find an optometrist to verify it or wait at least 4 MORE MONTHS to get them because you couldn't be bothered to double check the prescription you didn't agree with?! What kind of fucked up logic is that?! It would've taken literally 5 minutes. And THIS is why I'm changing doctors!

[Mindfulness.]

Wouldn't it be nice to not have anxiety?

[Mindfulness.]

I don't want Easter to end...

[Kate*]

I really hope I'm hanging tomorrow, but I don't think the truck had that much apparel on it. I would tolerate markdowns, they just take FOREVER. And hopefully the car starts. Just because my amazing manager offered to pick me up if needed, doesn't mean I want to have to accept. And I only see him once this week, *sad face*

[Mindfulness.]

I don't want to feel like this anymore.

[Mindfulness.]

Lets hope it's nothing.

[Mindfulness.]

I knew it was too good to be true.

[Kate*]

Are you fucking kidding me, is all I'm going to say right now. But, if this is still gnawing at me on Monday, or if something else happens before then that adds to it, we WILL have a conversation because THIS is EXACTLY why I am the way I am. I knew the second I let my guard down and trusted that I could approach a manager or make a mistake and not get that reaction, it would happen; and it did. And I didn't even screw up! What the fuck is she going to do if I actually make a mistake?! That's what I refuse to subject myself to, and I expect you to handle it, because for me at least, you always have.

[MWF]

Everybody I go on dates with I dislike, and everybody who I actually want to date are taken. I finally have confidence but it's really hard not to get down on myself when nothing... ever... works.

[Kate*]

I am getting REALLY sick of you not UNDERSTANDING shit! It goes to the INSURANCE COMPANY, not the doctor, THEY were supposed to send it FOR ME and YES I threw away the PAPER versions, it's in my ELECTRONIC MECICAL RECORD, so the doctor still had access to it and the paper was a LIST of possibilities, not a form, I don't NEED the PAPER ANYMORE and if I do, I can PRINT it! If it's pending review, it's because someone didn't do their job. I'll accept partial responsibility, and contact people to take care of this, but I'm still not paying the whole thing. And in my defense, I've never had to do this before, so how the fuck was I supposed to know how it works!?

[Mindfulness.]

Why do I keep doing this to myself?

[Mindfulness.]

I just want things to be normal.

[Kate*]

I'm desperate for a day off, I get the whole weekend and I'm bored by the first day. Still better than work though, I guess. I need a life.

Yes, I mind. That's why I'm not answering, take the hint guy I didn't want to give my number to in the first place...