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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 7th 2014, 06:41 AM
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Re: Complaint of the day -
April 7th 2014, 09:31 PM
My mom's not home, and I need her -.-
Waiting is a sign of true love and patience,anyone can say "I love you" But not everyone can wait and prove it's true.
Some say it's painful to wait for someone,Some say it's painful to forget someone,But the worst pain comes when you don't know whether to wait or forget.
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 7th 2014, 10:30 PM
I have a headache, i burnt my hand on accident today, and i have a shit ton of homework tonight.
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 8th 2014, 07:20 PM
Here I thought I was having a good, free and happy-ish day but oh no! I just have to let a thought, a single thought that disgusts me the most....bring me down to a fucking nervous breakdown and have this vicious anger filled with concern.
Oh well, I should of thought a little good day was too good to be true. I made myself a fool.
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 8th 2014, 08:30 PM
Today I had a job trial that scared the bejaysus out of me beforehand... was feeling sick with anxiety. And it didn't go that well. Partly because I have literally no waitressing experience and was learning everything from scratch, but also partly because I'm just a bit ditzy and a slow learner which causes me a lot of anxiety when I'm in situations where people expect you to learn fast.
I was there from 11am (which meant leaving my house soon after 9) to nearly 5pm and with uncomfortable period pains. AND they want me to come in on Thursday evening and all day Friday for two more trial shifts.
Which is about ten hours of unpaid work in a job I mightn't even get and where I would feel stupid for all my mistakes. When I have a big assignment and an exam next Wednesday and Thursday.
So I know they say shoot for the moon, they say keep your chin up bitesize, they say anxiety is all in your head, but life is too short to always make yourself do things you don't want to do, and I'm not going to make myself do this. I'm pretty sure.
Honey, you're familiar, like my mirror, years ago
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I slithered here from Eden just to sit outside your door
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 8th 2014, 09:27 PM
homework, and just feeling shit
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 10th 2014, 04:16 PM
I thought people on Teen Help pissed me off majorly.
I was wrong, people at school piss me off even more and I thought that was it.
Then I get on the bus, which is twenty minutes late, and it's filled with old (older than Craig, he's a fetus compared to them) people. Ugh.
But I know people at the place I live will send me over the edge this evening, when I will have been awake 33 hours.
I'm not in a good mood today. Cape Cod can sink into the Atlantic Ocean for all I care. Just warn me so I can evacuate first.
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 12th 2014, 02:42 AM
So many things that need to be fixed.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 12th 2014, 03:05 AM
School, writing, plans for the future. There's too goddamn much to think about, and definitely too many places where I'm never going to be good enough. Ugh. I'm such a failure. I wish I could disappear and stop caring.
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“I will be generous with my love today. I will sprinkle compliments and uplifting words everywhere I go. I will do this knowing that my words are like seeds and when they fall on fertile soil, a reflection of those seeds will grow into something greater.”
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 12th 2014, 10:24 PM
Ugh. Hotmail is being so annoying! It refuses to load. It was much better before it became Outlook.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 13th 2014, 11:38 PM
I shouldn't be complaining but I am because I'm a selfish baby like that.
I keep having these thoughts of what it'd be like to cut myself really really deep and not die (well maybe die) but end up in the hospital just so people would see that I'm not okay and I could see who cares enough to visit me, and I would just feel deep.
I'm just going through the motions, but really, I'm not getting squat better.
I didn't get to see Matthew this weekend, and whatever its fine you know? But I just don't want to lose him, to anything. And I'm just so paranoid that he's still not completely mine to lose.
I hate homework and I hate procrastination fuck. I need a job, or a social life, or something.
I don't want to go back to school.
I feel like I need to complain about not having many followers on tumblr because I'm just that much of a disappointment.
I don't know.
I feel really alone and I don't know what my life is.
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 15th 2014, 05:22 PM
Oh great, it's one of those days where I need to "take a look at my life" sort of thing.
Then I'll depressed again because I realize I fuck things up... and then whatever...
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 16th 2014, 01:42 AM
Fake days, Bipolar nights, tears from no reason, can't fight the frights.
I just want a hug and I want to be good enough and I want to be able to trust in people and in myself and in life.
I just want one... one day where I don't want to try and kill myself. One day where I'm content and not a psychopath.
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 16th 2014, 01:44 AM
Ugh, brain fog sucks. I can't stand being so forgetful. Not really looking forward to the weekend, either.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 16th 2014, 10:59 AM
Blergh, cold, and I have physio tomorrow. Hope they'll still let me go, plus I forgot to ask my physiotherapist about these exercises that she told me to do because I didn't quite understand them and sort of nodded in the right places so I could leave. Good job Sarah! ... -_-
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 16th 2014, 04:10 PM
Messed up everything in the one class I was trying to do well in. Got a low grade on the test because I couldn't focus AND he put stuff on it from a unit we hadn't even covered yet. He did the same on another paper that was graded. Ugh. Why. It's so hard. Everything is so hard. I'm done.
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 16th 2014, 10:26 PM
Oh...I never knew it was OK for you to complain about your petty problems every day to me for the past six months, but when I need your help for something serious you just tell me to 'be happy'. Fuck off.
When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.
Re: Complaint of the day -
April 17th 2014, 04:01 PM
The past few days my anxiety has been crippling. All day. Sick, choking, shaking. I should be used to feeling alone but I still feel alone feel alone and want to die.