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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
Re: Complaint of the day -
May 14th 2014, 05:43 PM
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I just.... I don't see any point in living...
I want to cry so badly, I can't handle this stress or anxiety or urges....
I can't STOP picturing fresh, deep cuts down my arms, I keep wanting to tear my hair out and smash windows, I can't... I CAN'T.
I feel like a race car inside of my body but outside I just want to fall over and sleep forever. Parts if me are uncontrollably fast and panicking, and other parts are just... dead....
I'm so done with school, I hate grades and I hate some of the assholes in my school and I feel so trapped and judged and so misunderstood.
And I'm so tired of counting the seconds until he breaks up with me because I can already feel him wanting me out of his life again, I know it, I know it.... He doesn't want me. I'm so... scared because I know if I lose him I won't be able to handle it so I might as well just leave now.
No one will care.
I was called a freak, a slut, and a bitch today and I know they were all kidding but no. I can't..... deal with that....
And my mom, MY MOM. I don't really think I can forgive her this time....
I don't know what I'm doing..... Why am I here?
I just.... I don't see any point in living...
I want to cry so badly, I can't handle this stress or anxiety or urges....
I can't STOP picturing fresh, deep cuts down my arms, I keep wanting to tear my hair out and smash windows, I can't... I CAN'T.
I feel like a race car inside of my body but outside I just want to fall over and sleep forever. Parts if me are uncontrollably fast and panicking, and other parts are just... dead....
I'm so done with school, I hate grades and I hate some of the assholes in my school and I feel so trapped and judged and so misunderstood.
And I'm so tired of counting the seconds until he breaks up with me because I can already feel him wanting me out of his life again, I know it, I know it.... He doesn't want me. I'm so... scared because I know if I lose him I won't be able to handle it so I might as well just leave now.
No one will care.
I was called a freak, a slut, and a bitch today and I know they were all kidding but no. I can't..... deal with that....
And my mom, MY MOM. I don't really think I can forgive her this time....
I don't know what I'm doing..... Why am I here?
I know we don't talk much, but I've seen you around here a lot. I just wanted to say that I care. That's at least one person. Im sure there are a lot of other people here that care about you as well. Probably people you know in person too, even if you don't talk to them all the time. I can't promise that it'll get better anytime soon, but please try to hold on. You can make it through this. I believe in you.
Re: Complaint of the day -
May 16th 2014, 08:00 AM
And now I am made to feel bad, because I do not say anything and I do not fight back
Why can't I avoid him! I see him everyday and it triggers! I don't want to see him
Last edited by Chris; May 19th 2014 at 12:33 AM.
Reason: Combined posts.
Re: Complaint of the day -
May 16th 2014, 11:53 PM
I feel so low and just numb
want to cut so badly..
was doing okay for a while but not anymore
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Re: Complaint of the day -
May 17th 2014, 07:19 AM
Plans for this weekend got cancelled.
*sigh*
"Don't tell me you're not beautiful. You're the kind of beautiful the blind would see if we could figure out some way to give them three seconds of sight." -- Shane Koyczan
Re: Complaint of the day -
May 17th 2014, 10:29 AM
Too many people off? TWO people had a holiday booked for this weekend out of 68 staff. Now I get to go to work and put up with people's whiny shit for five hours while my girlfriend is up north seeing all these amazing sights and visiting Harry Potter film locations. This sucks.
Throw those curtains wide
One day like this a year would see me right
Re: Complaint of the day -
May 19th 2014, 11:15 PM
the tension in my house right now is disgusting.
really just wanna leave this place.
or make them all leave, idk.
all I'm asking for is a little fucking care and support. you know, because i have the self esteem of a blade of grass and i can't lose you, and i feel like i'm losing you to her all over again and it hurts like you wouldn't believe, i know i probably am dramatic and annoying and you probably know you could do better and deserve better, so me asking for some more effort is kind of selfish but i'm in hell all alone here. you know, my parents are on the edge of a fucking divorce, i'm suicidal as hell and on the borderline of falling back to cutting, and my ex won't fucking stop playing with my head, and my grades suck and i suck and i won't suck you and UGH.
I just can't lose you.
grades. magically should just go up. now.
i want to sleep for like 5 days. and cuddle you and just remind you how much i love you and remind myself that you might at least like me... hella...
Re: Complaint of the day -
May 19th 2014, 11:22 PM
Stop screaming, I don't want to listen to it.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Complaint of the day -
May 20th 2014, 12:16 AM
Grrr. Why is snapchat being so freaking dumb? Seriously. Stop freaking crashing and spazzing out.
Plus. Is it really that hard to shut the heck up for once? I'm done wit your yelling.
Re: Complaint of the day -
May 20th 2014, 04:58 AM
My car was totaled in the accident. Now I have to figure out a way to buy a new car.... gonna end up getting a piece of junk. GREAT! I mess everything up. So pathetic. Nothing ever goes right. Story of my life.
Re: Complaint of the day -
May 20th 2014, 05:52 AM
My dad is losing his job, and my mother and him cannot afford medical insurance. They desperately need it (my father has MS, my mother has mental health issues), but instead, are buying some shitty "emergency-only" medical insurance, and I'm afraid one of them is going to get sick and they're going to lose all of their money because they're not willing to invest more in more comprehensive insurance. I mean, it would be most of their income, but they're so sickly, they're going to need it anyway. Ugh.
(If you don't live in the United States, take a moment to be faithful that your healthcare system is not as ridiculous as ours. For those in the US, this is not a crack at ACA. Our system was broken long before; the ACA is a bandaid on a completely broken system.)
Re: Complaint of the day -
May 21st 2014, 02:11 PM
There is seriously nothing worse than losing your house, every basic possession and everything you've ever had in a massive flood... You are left with nothing but your starving stomach, tears and a traumatized mind...
Re: Complaint of the day -
May 22nd 2014, 12:13 AM
Siblings are so annoying sometimes.
It took me a half hour to get my fingers to move today. I hate having a messed up body.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Complaint of the day -
May 23rd 2014, 08:52 PM
And here we go again Lucas. Your bipolar shit awakening... Again some little crap completely thrashed me and made my good mood go poof... Im tired. Goodnight. I hope i won't wake up.
Re: Complaint of the day -
May 24th 2014, 02:56 AM
It is way too hot in here. We only had a few days of spring before summer smacked us in the face.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first