Hey, I know how you feel about depression. I have just recently started feeling like this and comparing myself to others. The only thing I may not understand is if you have clinical depression. My doctor told me at the beginning of the summer that I may have low thyroid but I was so scared to get a blood test I ignored it. Now I may have hypothyroidism which can cause depression and many other things because you are not getting the hormones you need. I suggest you ask your doctor about this. Maybe you have it too. I would look up symptoms first though.