They should have kept you longer for help. And it appears as if everything is okay on here, so why not stay alive?

i did not go to the hospital for help i tried to kill myself i nearly died apparntly my heart stopped

You CAN still do this. You can go back to the hospital and get help.

i cant i cant do this anymore !!! i was in the hospital

Just the opposite. You have gotten past a lot so you can handle this too! It may seem like you can't, but down the road you'll realize suicide is not the answer and there are far better ways to deal. Killing yourself because of this is a little far, and you can definitely get past this and realize you have your own life to live.

i have handled too much soo thats the problem !!! i cant be here i cant get through it

You have handled so much in the past, I know you can get through this too and come out on top. You are strong and courageous, smart and just an amazing, caring person. I know that even though it is hard, you can take all of this stuff and push past it and be like "I can get through this."

no i cant handle this!!!

Live for the small things. Dogs and sunshine, dancing in the rain or watching the sunset or sunrise. The fact that your friends care about you. Prom (if Australia does prom, anyway). New clothes. Baked goods. All those things do tend to build up, and while they are building up, a good thing will come along to make it worthwhile. You will have a better future than this.

i dont want to live i want to die