I had my first kiss today!!! My bf and I walked out the back of the school together and headed down the side of the school towards the street. After a little ways he said he had to get back to the school for drama rehersal. We hugged for maybe 30 seconds, then I'm not sure exactly what he did, but he took his hand and moved my face to be facing him, and he kissed me!! I didn't really know what to do, so I didn't really kiss him back, but next time I think I'll be able to. It lasted maybe 10-15 seconds,...

I don't want TH friends anymore, because I'm so afraid of losing them.

It feels like I'm always the last to find out something is wrong. Overdosing can be permanent and yet people don't seem to realise. And then you act so fucking blase about it. I'm terrified.

I don't want to be friends with anyone anymore.... Because the way things seem to go I'm going to end up losing one of you.

Last night was the saddest night of my year so far.

Wake up...

I've been thinking a little bit about what I'd like to achieve this year. It's hard for me to get out and do and try new things because I'm always so scared - that's been going on since a child (even my teachers commented on it). So with that in mind, here are some things I'd like to try/do this year -

- Go for a one week holiday at Rottnest
- Get driving lessons = go for my P's
- Make one new offline friend
- Go to a pub with a friend

.... there's more...