On Monday....

My dad has a "welcome back present"....

How much more can he destroy me?

How much more can he take everything away???

My life love happiness everything...

I can't go publically swimming cuz the bruises....

She can't see the way your eyes will light up when you smile
She never noticed how you stop and stare whenever she walks by
And you can't see me wanting you the way you want her
But you are everything to me

And I just want to show you, she don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible, yeah...

I am very emotional today ( I know it's because it is coming that time of the month) but god I hate it... when it comes to this time of the month I find i miss him more than the rest of the time. I have been thinking about him alot lately and it is starting to drive me insane. Makes me realize i am not fully over him, and I should be because he hurt me.

You know that song "stupid boy" by Keith Urban. I was listening to it today and realized that, that song fits what happened...