I'm sorry if this gets long...I just feel awful. I'm not really sure where this is coming from. I just feel a little down right now. I've been feeling like this off and on for some time, and it usually goes away after a few days, but then a week or two later my sadness will come back. I can't shake my insecurities. I've tried so hard, I really have. But it's so hard.

I had it literally beaten into me for years by everyone around me that I was just this hideous monster that nobody...