I'm so tired of initiating conversations. I'm through with trying. What's the point? My "friends" don't bother with me they make pathetic excuses just to avoid spending time with me. *I just don't understand what's so wrong with me. I try to be polite. I never ever let anyone know I'm struggling. I listen and try to talk to people yet no one has time for me. I wish I knew why but all I know is I'm not going to bother anymore. What's the point in mindless talk when it just gets thrown back...

Help help help help... Help me

Please, I can't fight any longer :/

When you've lost weight! Wooo! Even cooler because I really haven't been doing anything, so it must be something in the way I'm eating - which also doesn't make sense because my eating and sleeping are all over the place at the moment. Still, I'm not complaining.

It wasn't a large amount of weight. And I can't say how much due to the rules about posting weight numbers. But I was surprised and pleased.

How did this come about?

I decided to weigh my cat...

So I rang WINZ. They're sending me out an application for invalid's benefit and I have an appointment next Friday. I need to wash my gym shirt and write a resignation letter, and take it in either tomorrow or Monday. I think tomorrow would be best but I don't know if I'll be able to access the washing machine in a timely manner.

So in a few weeks (three at most) all those loose ends will be tied up, and I'll either be on the Invalid's benefit, or they'll decline it and I'll stay on...