I went to bed to sleep around about 11pm, and dropped off relatively quickly. Barely 3 hours later, I wake up because my left shoulder joint is in an excruciating amount of pain. It won't click, no movement to different position helped. Some moves made the pain worse, but definitely none improved them. I couldn't breathe properly, the pain was so bad that I was panicking and hyperventilating. I got myself to sit up so I could get control of my breathing, which is just as well because I felt like...

why, why do i fell like this world isn't the place for me anymore? Why do i fell like the darkness of the day is taking over the light of the night. Tonight is the night that i say good bye to him. I miss the girl i once was but i know that the person i am isn't right i am not a dark person but now i am . I just wish the darkness i see would go away away from my i wanna smile and be happy again