Hi again, cant stop crying, pain is everywhere, my heart, my head, my thighs and all that I can think is what is the point in living anymore. No-one has any idea of how shit I feel all the time. My best friend wants to help me by getting a professional to see me but I don't want to talk to anyone (adult) they just don't understand they think it's attention seeking whereas really its a sign that im not alive inside anymore.

So, yes I did cut but it wasn't deep just a few and words writing fat and a star on my thigh. It stings and I regret it which is good my mood is all over the place at the moment, I miss smoking it always set my mood to one thing (I will tell you my smoking story next time) I may not be able to stop on my thigh thats what im scared about ... but I will always try xxx

Spent the past 2-3 hours trying to do my first assignment for Introducing the Social Sciences.
I'm watching the DVD again (3rd time now, and I've read the transcript for it) and it's getting me nowhere.
I mean. It's on Winners and Losers. And the one example I have is the same event that affects two people making one a winner and one a loser. I have other examples of losers. But no more winner examples and certainly none that are connected like I did with the first one.
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