Thigh is getting worse and worse with cuts, not really eaten in a few days. Right now when im alone in my bedroom there is nothing more that I want to do than cutting myself but then when im with my siblings and im out I feel really agility and stupid for doing it which then I do it again. It is a vicious circle - dont get into, you can't get out of it once your in it I promise you that stay strong. Xxx

So, yes I did cut but it wasn't deep just a few and words writing fat and a star on my thigh. It stings and I regret it which is good my mood is all over the place at the moment, I miss smoking it always set my mood to one thing (I will tell you my smoking story next time) I may not be able to stop on my thigh thats what im scared about ... but I will always try xxx

I have been cutting myself for almost 6 years now. But, I have been clean for about a month. Yay!
I started because a "friend" told me that it would help me feel better. So, I tried it. I just needed something to take the pain away. And it did. Everytime I did it, I became numb. It felt good. If I didn't do it deep enough, though, I would be in pain. So I have always made sure to cut deep. :\

1. How long have you been self harming? Discuss why you started.
2. What part of your body is most affected by it?
3. What is your motivation to recover?
4. Do you consider yourself “addicted”? why or why not?
5. What part of self harm do you dislike the most?
6. What about it do you enjoy?
7. list 10 activities that help you calm down.

8. What the most supportive thing anyone has said to you about self harm?

9. Have you ever...

I am in a bad place right now.... I keep thinking that I am a complete failure for not being able to finish what I started. Twice. Twice I survived when I shouldn't have. I don't know anymore if I want to be here anymore. I love this site because I can post anything and nobody will judge me.... I just need to vent I guess. It's late and I can't sleep and I am going crazy inside my head. I just don't know what to do anymore. All I know is that I don't really want to be here much longer. The only...

I am trying so damn hard. I can't take this. I'm supposed to be recovering?! If I could find my damn razor, I would cut myself. I have been cut free for how long now, and as soon as I want to do it, I can't. I am tired of hiding everything from everyone I know. Especially my wonderful, loving boyfriend. I HATE hiding things from him. We have been together for 2 years and 6 months, and yet I hide this from him.
Plus, he leaves in less than 2 months for Marines basic training and then...

So, I was addicted to cutting from 7th grade until 11th (I just ended my Junior year), but in January I went to the hospital for trying to kill myself. I went again in March because the week I spent in January didn't do much good and I tried to kill myself again, but this time I asked for help before I cut too deep. I have ugly scars all up and down my arms and legs and I hate them. I haven't cut since April, though, which is a big thing for me. Over the past few weeks, my dad and I have been...