Or not, as the case may be. Turns out, I was self harming as it hit christmas day. I know people want christmas to be memorable, but not like that.
I have a bone to pick with nature. Why is self harm the easiest on my arms??? I've been trying to stick to only cutting my thighs as no one will ever see them, but cutting my arms is so much easier. Its so annoying as that is where I scar quite easily, and after my face that part of my body that is visible most often. I only wear long sleeved...

I literally cannot stop myself. Every day. Even on Christmas Eve, when I should be happy.
And I'm not sure if I'm developing an ED or not. Because I'm so self concious about my mouth, I never eat in public, skip breakfast whenever I can, and eat less in between meals, so I basically only now only eat dinner. Even then its because my mum is on the room. Every time I look in the mirror I'm filled with self loathing.
So not only am I trying not to self harm half an hour before christmas...

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Didn't really drink much, plus food, so sobered up pretty fast, but already too triggered
Aaaaahhhhh well