I had a lot of bad dreams last night. I don't really remember any of them except one though. I had a dream where I was self harming. I had self harmed a lot in it. I've never had a self harm dream before.

My self esteem has been kind of bad again lately. I can't help but thinking about all I ate yesterday. I can't help but just call myself fat fat fat. Fat and lazy. I'm going to gain so much weight.

This whole no class thing has been so frustrating to me, it really...