i have vodka and im going to get fucked because i feel really fucking shit and i want to overdose but at the same time i dont want to be abusive and if i kill myself they might think its because they left me and if i survive then im being abusive and if i dont i might make them feel guilty
i still might. we'll see how i feel later i guess. i just want to drink until oblivion.
i drinked until i things dont hurt anymore so that s good right i think thats good and now im singing to kyle...