Sorry to hear about your experiences- I would feel the same if I was told I had to take a pee test because I find it difficult to do that when I need to as well. Feeling angry about all of this is completely valid.

It must be confusing to hear another professional suggest BPD and how that conflicts with your prescriber. One of my close friends was diagnosed with BPD and has been on medication and in and out of therapy for nearly 10 years, only to recently find out that he may be autistic. Sadly, that's true for many people with a BPD (mis)diagnosis. Just goes to show that even professionals don't always get it right at times!

Hope you are hanging in there

This makes me really angry.

I'm so sorry about this Dez.