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Day 1
DAY ONE: The healing process begins.
Well, here I am. It is now 2:54 A.M, so it's basically day two. Oh well. Yesterday (day one), was the day I decided to try my best to forget the girl that kept hurting me. But that wasn't the only thing bothering me - oh no. I lost pretty much all my friends, and my family is a mess. I basically had nothing. I had plans on sleeping the whole day away, because I was so depressed, and didnt have anyone, or anything. I simply couldn't do it. I woke up a bunch of times, but kept forcing myself back to sleep. Around two or three, I couldn't do it anymore. I got up. The first thing that came to my mind was, ofcourse, the same thing thats plagued me for months now, the girl I am in love with. Its too bad she's just used me like a toy for the past few months. I turned on some music. I tried to be happy, listening to happy music, which really isnt my style, as I usually listen to a bit more alternative/"emo"/depressing songs. It lasted for a good bit, but she stayed on my mind, and she still is right now at 2:56. But I tried to talk to people, have a normal life without her. When I just couldn't take it anymore, feeling trapped and anti-social, I searched Google. Thats when I found TeenHelp - and though I haven't been here long, I've met some awesome people and heard some very motivational words that may actually help me finally become a better person, and stop letting this girl hurt me. I miss her, ofcourse. 9 months is a long time. She was everything to me. But in time, I'll be fine. Thanks for taking the time to read this. I will update more soon!
P.S: I just remembered - last night I found myself praying to God, begging, "please give me a miracle". Now I'm here!
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Well, here I am. It is now 2:54 A.M, so it's basically day two. Oh well. Yesterday (day one), was the day I decided to try my best to forget the girl that kept hurting me. But that wasn't the only thing bothering me - oh no. I lost pretty much all my friends, and my family is a mess. I basically had nothing. I had plans on sleeping the whole day away, because I was so depressed, and didnt have anyone, or anything. I simply couldn't do it. I woke up a bunch of times, but kept forcing myself back to sleep. Around two or three, I couldn't do it anymore. I got up. The first thing that came to my mind was, ofcourse, the same thing thats plagued me for months now, the girl I am in love with. Its too bad she's just used me like a toy for the past few months. I turned on some music. I tried to be happy, listening to happy music, which really isnt my style, as I usually listen to a bit more alternative/"emo"/depressing songs. It lasted for a good bit, but she stayed on my mind, and she still is right now at 2:56. But I tried to talk to people, have a normal life without her. When I just couldn't take it anymore, feeling trapped and anti-social, I searched Google. Thats when I found TeenHelp - and though I haven't been here long, I've met some awesome people and heard some very motivational words that may actually help me finally become a better person, and stop letting this girl hurt me. I miss her, ofcourse. 9 months is a long time. She was everything to me. But in time, I'll be fine. Thanks for taking the time to read this. I will update more soon!
P.S: I just remembered - last night I found myself praying to God, begging, "please give me a miracle". Now I'm here!
(Please subscribe and/or comment, it would mean alot to me! Thank you!)
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I'm so glad you found TH! It really is a great place for everyone to get any sort of help, big or small. I'm really sorry that you are going through such a hard time right now. I really hope that you choose to speak out to someone about it. It's not healthy to keep it inside. Hopefully you can let out a lot of stress and bundled up emotions through blogging or whatever you chose to do here on TH. It would probably do you a lot of good to actually speak to someone in real life about it. Maybe not your parents, as you've said they are a mess, but maybe someone else you feel comfortable with. Maybe a pastor, coach, teacher, an older friend that you look up to? Speaking to someone in real life can work wonders. Also, have you ever considered seeing a counselor or therapist? They can be verrry helpful too.
Another thing, I'm not sure if you have seen this, but the Alternatives thread is a really great source. It's originally for Self Harm, but you can use it for whatever. There are sections for each emotion that you are going through to try to distract yourself or make you feel better. Here's the link. http://forums.teenhelp.org/f12-self-...ves-self-harm/
I wish you the best of luck with this challenge you are facing in your life. Take care! Feel free to talk to me anytime.
Posted July 17th 2009 at 07:47 AM by DomoKay
