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Posted August 15th 2009 at 02:54 PM by Liz94
Ok so this summer hols ive got eating back on track and excercised in moderation. In doing so gained half stone.
I havent cut for 24 days.
Ive been going out the house with my family
Ive been texting friends.
But inside nothing has improved I hate how fat and ugly I look.
The urges to cut are so big and occur everynight its getting harder and harder to beat them.
Im putting a smile on my face which is fake.
This isn't right my doctor friends and family told me that if I ate normally and stopped self harming everytime I felt depressed, angry, stressed and scared that things would improve but they haven't if enything Ive become more depressed.
Im strongly thinking that at the end of summer hols just giving up and skipping meals again cause I can in term time. And self harming to get through the days cause atm Im really struggling to see the point in life.
LIZ
I havent cut for 24 days.
Ive been going out the house with my family
Ive been texting friends.
But inside nothing has improved I hate how fat and ugly I look.
The urges to cut are so big and occur everynight its getting harder and harder to beat them.
Im putting a smile on my face which is fake.
This isn't right my doctor friends and family told me that if I ate normally and stopped self harming everytime I felt depressed, angry, stressed and scared that things would improve but they haven't if enything Ive become more depressed.
Im strongly thinking that at the end of summer hols just giving up and skipping meals again cause I can in term time. And self harming to get through the days cause atm Im really struggling to see the point in life.
LIZ
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Hey there liz,
im sorry you feel like this, but things will get better.
You are strong, remember that.
If you ever need a chat, feel free to PM me (:
Take care and stay strong <3Posted August 15th 2009 at 03:52 PM by Palmolive
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Hey Liz, erm, i don't really know why i'm commenting, but i just want to say that what you've written down, i feel exactly the same. I haven't cut fot 2 weeks now, and when i see my friends i put on a fake smile just so that i can act normal. But inside i feel so selfconcious. I feel fat. Ugly. Paranoid. Just generally awful. I can't explain it, but that's how i feel.
So you're not alone.
xxxxPosted August 15th 2009 at 08:12 PM by emma*
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I love you, text me xxxPosted August 16th 2009 at 12:11 AM by Naomi.
