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Posted August 3rd 2019 at 08:27 AM by i_like_black
Or in a fruitier phrase, the sh*t has hit the fan.
So, in June I lost my grandfather around the same time as I was re-homing my dog. My dog had bit another dog (she was just about to go on heat and had never previously shown any signs of aggression), but the lady I gave her to said she was clearly not an aggressive dog and after all was still a puppy.
I found out today through the new owner that the council decided to prosecute her, and as a result, she will be destroyed. The new owner if devastated and for me upset is an understatement.
Was it a good enough excuse to use again? Almost, but I didn't. I rang my mum and asked for some money to buy vape fluid with, and that's what I did.
I'm sorta proud of myself but currently existing in a dark cloud of grief. I don't think I can handle any more loss at this point in time.
I'm still trying, I'm not giving up, I'm still drug and self-harm free, I'm just hurting is all.
But it will be okay.
So, in June I lost my grandfather around the same time as I was re-homing my dog. My dog had bit another dog (she was just about to go on heat and had never previously shown any signs of aggression), but the lady I gave her to said she was clearly not an aggressive dog and after all was still a puppy.
I found out today through the new owner that the council decided to prosecute her, and as a result, she will be destroyed. The new owner if devastated and for me upset is an understatement.
Was it a good enough excuse to use again? Almost, but I didn't. I rang my mum and asked for some money to buy vape fluid with, and that's what I did.
I'm sorta proud of myself but currently existing in a dark cloud of grief. I don't think I can handle any more loss at this point in time.
I'm still trying, I'm not giving up, I'm still drug and self-harm free, I'm just hurting is all.
But it will be okay.
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Sorry to hear you lost your grandfather a little while ago and that your dog will be destroyed. I can't imagine the heartbreak but I'm so glad you didn't use and you are still drug and self-harm free. Going through difficult times and hurting is never nice but you will get through this and you will be okay
Posted August 3rd 2019 at 12:01 PM by Celyn
