I woke up this morning thinking about suicide. All I could think of was ways to make it look like an accident. I didn't say anything though. Instead I went to school and acted like nothing was wrong. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't keep hiding it and acting like nothing's wrong when all I want to do is cry. I just want one person to ask if I'm okay and stop assuming that just because I'm smiling there's nothing wrong. I just wish that I felt happy. I blame myself for not being happy. All...

Sorry I haven't been posting anything I've been grounded. But anyways. So far this month has started out crappy for many reasons. First, my mom grounded me because I failed a few classes. Then when I went and tried to get the work I was missing or extra credit she wouldn't give it to me so when I came and told my mom she told me I was a liar. Awesome right? So that night I spent the whole night in my room writing about stupid stuff but writing none the less. Then the next day I saw this thing for...