My friend and I were talking yesterday. She and I both go to the same counselling center at my school and they're dropping her and referring her somewhere else because the counselling center is for short-term stuff and I guess she's too long-term and I know that eventually they'll do that to me too, and I'm scared. I CAN'T be referred somewhere else, I really can't. One, transportation is a thing, but insurance also is as well. Even on insurance I am forced to pay a hefty percent of the bill which...

The end of my week was pretty busy.

The doctor's appointment went pretty decent. I got a referral to a cardiologist to discuss some issues I've been having. My doctor doesn't think that it is a problem but she's more doing a safe than sorry sort of thing. I'm also going to be going for bloodwork.

She says I seem more relaxed now that I'm in college. I don't think she's wrong necessarily. I mean, I do have a really high stress level right now and do have new struggles,...

I don't really know where I am going with this so sorry.

The guy that I kissed, I keep blowing him off when he asks to hang out, though the last time I did it I honestly had cramps and felt icky. I'm thinking I might say yes next time, maybe, and hope I can get some weed out of it. Maybe I'd go through kissing him again for a bit more weed.

My best friend's ex boyfriend is talking to me again and I am wondering if that makes me a bad person. He asked if I...