It's been a roller coaster I guess.

I feel so unstable right now and I don't know why. I ended up feeling low at the thought of coming back to campus Sunday and cut.

I cut again yesterday. The lows and anxieties were just piling up again. I'd cut after counseling. I would have again late last night except my roommate was around and I didn't think I could escape safely with the tool and band aids.

I am going to counselling every other week now because...

So, time to carry on the saga of the fun and exciting things that happen in the life of Dez.

I saw the APRN yesterday and she prescribed me Zoloft. I really didn't like the APRN though. I found her really fucking weird to be honest. Her personality, just... idk. Something felt off to me. I didn't like her but I'll have to see her a few more times this month and then once a month. And I know it's just protocol probably, but I hate how I got asked if I was sexually abused ever. "Oh,...