I had to drop the theatre class I was going to be taking over the winter. I was stupid and didn't look at the course description well enough so I didn't realize that I would have to attend a play. That wouldn't be a problem it it were a full-semester class, but winter session classes are only 3 weeks long which is too short notice. I feel so stupid and hate myself for not noticing that earlier. This sets my plan back even more and now I feel like I'm never going to get to where I want to be....

I have felt so bad about myself lately. I have gained so much weight it is ridiculous. I am now definitely overweight and this just doesn't feel good or healthy for me but yet I eat anyway and don't exercise and don't do anything to stop it and then keep feeling bad about myself when I gain weight. I'm so fat and have so many stretchmarks it's so gross. I am so gross in general. My teeth are bad and I have acne and eczema and my hair is wild and never tame and I have no style. I am selfish and disappointed...