I don't really have a title. (Trig?)

Heyyyy lovelies.

I don't really know what I am saying necessarily here.

The past two weeks as a whole haven't been bad, but I'm starting to spiral again and it kind of sucks.

I was sick pretty much from Thursday up until yesterday, and it pretty much killed me this weekend, so I am SO far behind on things. Well, not really. But I feel that way. But since I was sick, I wasn't really able to do much in the way of work, either in school or on Staff. I wasn't like severely ill, but I was just too tired to focus.

But somehow I still managed to make myself sad.

Then today started out with a flurry of me forgetting things to the point where it pretty much stressed me out and going to counselling. I am still scared that I am not getting my point across. In a way I'm scared she thinks that it's all school-related. It's not. These bad feelings can happen anywhere and at any time, it just so happens that school is my main thing right now.

First class went fine.

I skipped my second class though and now feel so guilty about it. I texted a girl in my class after and she said that I didn't miss anything much, but I still can't help but feel so guilty because I don't normally do that sort of thing.

But I felt anxious about it. I noticed when I feel anxious or upset sometimes, my fingers and palms tingle. Is that abnormal?

I went back and started my essay. And wrote a draft. And it is shit, shit, shit and I don't even know if it is what she wants out of me. I decided I am going to make an appointment at my campus writing center though to see if they can help me fix it up some.

I kind of want to cut though. I want to see the blood and feel some sort of way.