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Sitting in a corner all alone
Posted July 16th 2010 at 04:02 PM by SonicFan
Updated July 16th 2010 at 04:04 PM by SonicFan (Formatting)
Updated July 16th 2010 at 04:04 PM by SonicFan (Formatting)
Title: FullMoon -Sonata Arctica
I remember the days when I could just sit in a corner and look out on the world, it seemed safe and secure and nobody would bother me because I'd have a copy of the metro [newspaper] cleverly hidden inside of a textbook
I feel isolated, lonely, crap. I feel like I should be out there making the most of life and just sitting out there thinking about stuff. During my first year at uni I'd stand on a bridge and wonder what'd happen if I were to jump over the side and end the pain, end the loneliness, lee + loneliness + drink is not the best choice, I could have killed myself that one night - part of me wishes I had . How am I meant to cope without cutting, it was my lifeline and it's associated with happier times in my mind, perhaps going back will make me happy again, make me feel more real?
I dunno, thinking is too much effort, I don't want to think, it's just painful memories, so much bad to so little good and yet I had a stable upbringing and thus no right to complain, right?
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