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Not sure how much longer I can hold on....
Posted December 15th 2011 at 02:33 AM by torturing_myself
Im so tired of trying... 
I've spent the past 8 years being sexually abused by both of my cousins who are my age... I've spent 6 years dealing with cutting, bruising, and scratching myself... That entire time i was dealing with issues with my mom who mentally abused me and issues with my dad who was never there... Im so tired of trying so hard for nothing... The only one i have is my best friend and even in that she doesnt really understand and tries so hard but i just cant do it anymore.
I constantly have the urge to hurt myself and now have really strong thoughts about killing myself and have found myself in many situations about to actually do it... Why do I always feel like this and think about this??... I want to stop all of it so much but the harder i try the worse it gets... I dont know what to do anymore... I have nobody to talk to that understands or who can help... Im tired of the panic attacks and of cutting myself every chance i get and finding myself in awkward situations where i have no idea how i got there... What do i do?? I hate myself and im so tired of trying sometimes i just want to end it all just to make my life and everyone elses easier... I dont know how to stop and I've tried all the alternatives and none of them help.... Help me please??... I dont want to do it but im not sure if theres a way out... I'm sorry... Im really sorry
I've spent the past 8 years being sexually abused by both of my cousins who are my age... I've spent 6 years dealing with cutting, bruising, and scratching myself... That entire time i was dealing with issues with my mom who mentally abused me and issues with my dad who was never there... Im so tired of trying so hard for nothing... The only one i have is my best friend and even in that she doesnt really understand and tries so hard but i just cant do it anymore. I constantly have the urge to hurt myself and now have really strong thoughts about killing myself and have found myself in many situations about to actually do it... Why do I always feel like this and think about this??... I want to stop all of it so much but the harder i try the worse it gets... I dont know what to do anymore... I have nobody to talk to that understands or who can help... Im tired of the panic attacks and of cutting myself every chance i get and finding myself in awkward situations where i have no idea how i got there... What do i do?? I hate myself and im so tired of trying sometimes i just want to end it all just to make my life and everyone elses easier... I dont know how to stop and I've tried all the alternatives and none of them help.... Help me please??... I dont want to do it but im not sure if theres a way out... I'm sorry... Im really sorry
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Just keep holding on, things will get better. For me, you don't know me, but I care about you. Your beautiful, and amazing. Don't forget that.Posted December 20th 2011 at 03:29 AM by beautybabe23
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Hey girl! I can't remeber your email address. I was just wondering how you were doing? =]Posted December 21st 2011 at 01:39 AM by poeticlife
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I sent you a PMQuote:Originally Posted by poeticlife
Hey girl! I can't remeber your email address. I was just wondering how you were doing? =]Posted December 21st 2011 at 11:08 PM by torturing_myself
