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Self Harm If you or someone you know is struggling with self harm and needs advice or alternatives, we're here to help.
I did it at college. -
September 7th 2011, 09:33 PM
I cut at college last night, a week ago some little fat specky kid and i were talking and he was declaring his love for my roomate and was complimenting on how gorgeous and beautiful she looked infact i'll roleplay it out;
Specky Git: I mean see Suzanne? She's fucking gorgeous and beautiful but i would never tell her that incase she thinks i'm a bit full on but see you, your not pretty.. Me: Thanks.... Specky Git: What i mean is your not the best looking, i feel sorry for you.
I kinda just put it to the back of my mind and joked about it with my classmates but last night we were seriously discussing it and all my friends kept saying that he was disgusting to say to me and that i'm actually really pretty etc. so when the conversation got serious i started to get seriously upset because my way of coping is just to make joke after joke after joke so i went up to my dormitory afterwards, looked in the mirror and cut.
Luckily it's cold so i'm always covering my arms up but my roomate and one of they 4 guys she's sleeping with seen it and i don't want it being spread around. They already know i have SH in the past due to the severe scars on my arms.
I just feel really shitty and low, i mean my second week in college and i've cut already?
Re: I did it at college. -
September 7th 2011, 10:15 PM
Cutting is hard to get over. A lot of things trigger people, and it's hard to resist the urge to do it. It can be done though. Don't look at this as a failure, just keep your head up, and don't listen to what that asshole said.
Re: I did it at college. -
September 7th 2011, 10:23 PM
Please don't be too hard on yourself - self harming isn't easy to break out of. I want to second what Lissa said -- that guy is clearly a shallow idiot.
Move forward, and forget about him. He's not worth being hurt over.
Re: I did it at college. -
September 8th 2011, 12:17 AM
I'm so very sorry lovely I know it feels like you can't control it, but you CAN. you're strong, lovely <3 You can do it <3 Don't let that jerk get to you, okay? Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and apparently his beholding eye is jacked up or something.
Re: I did it at college. -
September 8th 2011, 12:30 AM
I know how hard it is to relapse and cut but that doesn't mean you're a failure. It's all a part of getting stronger and eventually stopping for good. That idiot was clearly blind you're beautiful. Don't listen to him! Stay strong, and take care.