Triggering: Umm rape

[pologirl]

Hi.
So umm this is the first time posting on this forum. So just over a year ago I was raped by my boyfriend. This is the first time I've ever told anyone ever. He's back in town for the summer and I've had really bad memories and nightmares. He came by my job and I flipped shit. Now no one can touch me
without me like freaking and like breaking down.
I'm not to sure what I want from posting, guess I'm just hoping someone gets it.

[FlyingTrue]

Hello,
What he did was not acceptable under any circumstance, and obviously as you can tell, the fact that he is trying to contact you again indicates that he is still a threat. I highly recommend going to the police about this, they will make sure you are kept safe from him and punish him for what he did. There is no statute of limitations to prevent you from reporting this, and your safety is paramount. Please try to stay strong, we are here for you.

[Youth Pastor]

You're doing the right thing and that's telling someone. Getting it out in the open is much better than keeping it inside. Good job there! From here on try to find someone either on here or preferably face to face, like a counselor, who you can talk to more openly and they can help you. This is a start.

[HealingAngel]

This is definitely a start. It might not seem likemuch bt writing it down and letting the world know (even if you don't know anyone personally) is a HUGE step. From here on keep taking little steps until you find the courage to tell your family as well as the police. It is so important that he be punished or at the very least that the police keep him fro harming you again. You are incredibly brave, but sometimes letting it out can help. Bit by bit... Step by step... You will start to heal.

Let it out.
Scream it.
Whisper it.
Write it down and let someone see it.
But let it be known...

Just tell someone ... you have every right to...

[Madeleine.Claire]

Listen to Kayla.

Tell someone, you are obviously very strong to have made it to this point. And being able to tell someone makes you so much stronger. If he is back, you need to tell someone. He has no right to try and contact you after what he did.

You are so brave and it's going to be okay.

<3

[pologirl]

Thanks guys for your support.
Yea I really don't feel comfortable telling anyone- like it's been over a year and I've only admired here.
And i don't comfortable telling the police at all- haven't even said it out loud.

[Dr.heather]

you really need to tell someone. He might even try this again if he feels he got away with it.

You will never feel comfortable or safe with anyone untill you get over this. You need to get to a therapist... You need some closer... at least making sure he is out of your life for good

[pologirl]

I can't tell anyone- heck took me over a year just to post it here. No I can't tell anyone.

[Madeleine.Claire]

If you really feel like you can't tell anyone, then distance yourself from him as much as possible, avoid any situation that he could be in and tell him to leave you alone.

It would be hard, but you can tell someone.

[pologirl]

I TOLD SOMEONE!!! it's a relief because they were raped too so they understand

[Kitty.]

Hey,

I'm glad that you told someone. This is an awesome step on the way to recovery. How are you coping now that you have told someone?

Take care,
Kitty.

[pologirl]

I'm coping. It did bring everything right up to the surface which has been hard. Done a lot of thinking about what I wish I had done so I wouldn't have been in that situation. I've wished I'd never been in that relationship. Thought about everything he told me. It's defenitly been difficult.