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[Ballsack]

My dad's a bum who apparently hasn't paid for my brother's school for about SIX MONTHS. That's crazy. My brother goes to a private school but that's because he's autistic and needs more attention than what a public school could provide. I'm not sure how much my brother's school fees cost but I think it'd be more than what I'll make in my part time job. I'm feeling pretty stressed right now because since my brothers school fees has not been paid in six months he won't be allowed to go to school anymore and if my brother got cut off from school then my mom will move with me to the town that I'm going to for college. Which means that I won't be able to get a taste of what freedom could be. I'm an adult now, I need to learn how to be independent. Yes the reason is so that I can leave my family behind but even if I'm not leaving them (slim chance) I still need to be able to act like an adult and I can't do that if my mom keeps worrying if I'm going out or threatening suicide when I get a girlfriend. Also, my college fee isn't cheap either and my dad has already borrowed money to pay for just a third of what he needs to pay for THIS YEAR ONLY. WHAT ABOUT NEXT YEAR??? AND THE YEAR AFTER THAT??? Man I gotta find another job. This one pays well and to be honest I plan on quitting once I start college but now I don't think I could even afford to quit! Hell, I might need to take more jobs. And what about school work? If I got distracted by work then I might get bad grades and it would just be a waste of money. What about my social life? Everything is expensive now, my country's economy is at an all time low! Everything is so damn expensive! I just want a haircut, launch my magazine, go out by myself and have fun but that's gonna cost like a gazillion bucks now. Man, I already had plans and dreams that I want to achieve once I'm in college but I don't think I could even afford to dream. Not with how broke my family is. Even dreaming of going out seems just as fantastical as dreaming of owning a dragon.

[Ballsack]

What a cruel cosmic joke. Just when I'm not suicidal life gets much harder to live