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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 1st 2017, 01:59 AM
Just be you. That's what my parents and sisters are always telling me to do. And I do that, I am me. But I see my friends and family who are not shy and they are outgoing and I say I am going to be like them in my head, and I try to be like them and my mom says what are you doing, I say trying to be like them or you. She said no, be you and only you because you are an amazing person. But sometimes I wish that I wasn't so shy and quiet. But I don't know how to change. Maybe I am always going to be like this.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 1st 2017, 08:06 AM
I'm not taking this 'cyst on cervix' thing so well.
“You always look so cool,
like no matter what happens, it’s got nothing to do with you,
but you’re not really like that.
In your own way, you’re out there fighting as hard as you can,
even if other people can’t tell by looking at you.”
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 1st 2017, 06:58 PM
Know those days when nothing goes right? Yeah that's the one. I don't want to annoy anyone with complaining so I suppose this is the best place to take it all out.
So...
On Sunday there is this meeting I'm fucking scared of, everybody keeps telling me it's gonna be aight but fuck I don't take any pleasure in meeting people, especially strangers that know each other. I'm only stressed af.
On Monday the schoolyear begins. New school, new classmates, new teachers, everything totally unknown.
I've been feeling so sick today. Like vomiting. I've got a headache. And, above everything, I FUCKING CAN'T STAND ALL THESE EMOTIONS I FUCKING MISS YOU I WANT YOU HERE BUT I WON'T TELL YOU THAT, BECAUSE I'M TOO POSSESSIVE AND YOU'LL FEEL BAD AFTERWARDS FUCK!
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 1st 2017, 11:02 PM
I would LOVE for that to be my next submission, but I don't think it would get published, and if it did, I don't think I could handle the backlash. Part of me doesn't want to care what other people think, but I know I'm still sensitive enough to it that it's not something I can subject myself to.
I was somehow the only person to hear you page me, which you only did once even though I never found you or figured out what you wanted me for, even the manager didn't mention it to me when I finally found him. If you need me for something, you need to either clearly tell me where you are, or you need to come and find me. I'm only in one of 3 places!
I still want my old life back. I went from earning a masters degree to considering applying for disability (which I won't get) and working a part-time job where I don't make a ton, even if I admit to liking it.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; September 2nd 2017 at 02:17 AM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 2nd 2017, 03:41 PM
You ruined my life and you don't care, I wouldn't believe you if you told me you did, you're probably just really good at faking it.
Is this as good as it will ever get, really? After everything I've been through and how capable I am, this is really it for me?!
Yes, I know it's wrong that I still don't know where anything is and it's really bad that I got sympathy/complained/ let my negative emotions show to costumers, believe me, I know but we all have bad days and I was doing it completely alone
Yeah, because dealing with her after working 3 days of a holiday weened mostly alone is exactly what I want to do. I can't deal with all of her CONSTANT VICTIMHOOD BULLSHIT as it is. I swear t God I'll end up strangling her. I have limited patience and less mental stamina than most people. I CAN'T FUCKING deal with her too!!!!!!!!!!!
And my cart of clothes that I left in the back had better be there tomorrow or she's going to complain on Monday that there are too many of them, but if I can't find the last one I had, I use an empty one and move on. It's not my fault they randomly disappear!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; September 3rd 2017 at 01:32 AM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 3rd 2017, 06:11 PM
You wanted me to tell you where something was, and I didn't know. No amount of attitude or complaining from you would've changed that. I'm sorry you're frustrated, but it's not my fucking fault or my job to tolerate it.
It has NOTHING to do with "privilege" and EVERYTHING to do with being politically correct! Now, I'm all for being PC within reason, but you're asking WAY too much if you don't want people to tell you to calm down. If you are not capable of discussing issues that are sensitive for you in a calm and adult manner, then you are immature or have an impulse control problem, it's not the other person's job to put up with you if you can't act your age. You exit the situation, end of. This is the attitude I talk about when I say I hate the neurodiversity movement. You don't have a right to demand that people bend over backwards for you, no matter what you're issues are.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 3rd 2017, 11:59 PM
My parents have been screaming at each other since the moment I woke up this morning. I don't even know what triggered it this time, which honestly makes it worse. It's almost 5 pm now.
I don't even know how or why they keep it going for this long. Why can't they just get a freaking divorce
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 4th 2017, 03:44 PM
Why am I still nauseous?! Didn't eat lunch
No, I can't see if we have more of those because A: I don't think we do and B. I DON'T KNOW HOW or where they would be if we did. I'm not being a bad employee, I haven't been taught where the fuck things are!
Right, because doing that is so fucking easy for us that just getting out is your only suggestion. I really have to learn to stop doing this.
New side effect, ear and hearing issues. Awesome I hope they go away like the others did. This sucks, but it explains why I'm less sensitive, can't understand the pages at work, and need customers to repeat themselves.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; September 5th 2017 at 06:57 PM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 5th 2017, 06:08 PM
My heart's pounding and arythmic. I'm trembling constantly. I get waves of heat and cold, I can't sleep, I panic, I wanna run away, I bite my nails off, all my muscles are aching, I've got a headache and swollen eyes from uncontrollable tears I can't stop, isn't this enough to leave me alone