another poem may 31, 2013

[Not_here]

I'm a venting can,
lid wide opened,
spilling
into person after person
I direct the conversations
around me, always
why am I so selfish?
why do I wish
to burden others with
my sufferings?

can't stop venting,
whether I trust you or not
can't stop venting
I just can't stop.

handing them my sack
of emotions, to carry
along with their own.
I don't want to plague them
with my pain,
I have to do this on my own.
I try to close up again
but I'm too opened
to be closed.
I can't un-reveal
everything I told.

can't stop venting,
whether I trust you or not
can't stop venting,
I just can't stop.

compensate those days
I was put on display
in plain view
unprotected.
I have to let it all out
before I break down
sensitive as a bomb,
time is ticking, exploding
any minute now.
in the past
I hushed my tone
while forced to endure
all alone.
watched myself lose innocence
becoming filthy and unpure
all the while staying silent,
but inside,
mind running wild
and violent.
blood boiling, begging
to let a scream escape
to have a person understand me
to have a chance to speak
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tried to make it a little different this time with some repetition. Ironically, I'm venting.

This is so amazing, and I can relate to this a lot. I love it.

Thanks for posting. Also, I'm sure others don't mind helping you. People care about you, including me. Everyone needs someone to listen to them.

[Ennui.]

I like this, especially the first stanza!

Christabel is right that it's okay to vent.

[Not_here]

thank you Christabel and Dez <3 it means a lot.
I agree with you, but I still feel guilty after I vent But then when I don't vent, I feel like I need to.

You're welcome!
Aww man, seriously, Susan. You're like my mental twin. I can relate to like, everything you say... I feel exactly the same about venting.

[Not_here]

Originally Posted by Christabel

You're welcome!
Aww man, seriously, Susan. You're like my mental twin. I can relate to like, everything you say... I feel exactly the same about venting.

I think we are mental twins Why are all my twins so far away from me </3

It's hard opening up, but feel free to come to me, if you need to vent

I don't know, we gotta visit one day my twin.

Aww thanks, same goes for you too, alright? You can vent to me and not have to feel guilty, because I don't mind.

[Not_here]

Originally Posted by Christabel

I don't know, we gotta visit one day my twin.

Aww thanks, same goes for you too, alright? You can vent to me and not have to feel guilty, because I don't mind.

I know right it's imperative.
thank you same goes for you <3

[PrimadonnaQueen]

I really like the use of repetition

[Not_here]

thank you Mariah <3