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| Today 02:26 AM |
| Dude111 |
Peole are very mean and dont realise how hard it is to be trans....
You would rather not be but you dont feel right as you are!!
Im so sorry buddy 
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| Yesterday 12:44 PM |
| Face Up. |
Re: Being Trans is Honestly Really Difficult
Hey,
That's a lot to go through. I'm sorry that you aren't getting support from the people around you and that you live in a country where being part of the queer community is looked down on. It's truly not fair to you, or anyone, that we live in a world where things like this are still so taboo and hated. Also, your mom saying she would kill herself if you were a lesbian (or queer) is an abuse tactic. Whether she does or not, it is NOT your fault. You are not at fault for living the life that is true to you. She is in control of her actions, you didn't "cause" anything.
Are there any groups of LGBTQ+ people you can find? Maybe even an online support group if you have social media such as Facebook. I know online is not the same as in person, but it may help you connect with people who can support you. Make sure the groups you join are set to private rather than public so your posts don't pop up on your family's newsfeed. Maybe since you are getting an education right now, there are people in your school that think/feel similarly to you. They might be more open-minded now that they are free to make their own choices. Maybe there are even some people on campus that are queer.
Going to another country honestly does sound like a great idea if you can swing it. I know it's hard to work while you are in school, but maybe you can get a part-time job and start putting money away. I don't know what it's like to move to a new country, but you can research what it requires and take the steps one at a time. Saving for a therapist who knows about queer patients is also a great idea. They might be willing to do a sliding scale for payments for you, where they take your income into account and charge you a different amount based on how much you are making. I can understand why you don't want to open up to a regular therapist though if they'll just send you to conversion therapy. It sounds like there aren't as strong of privacy laws where you live compared to where I live.
Remember that there is nothing wrong with you for being trans, and you deserve to have a good life. It isn't fair to you to simply push down who you are. Remind yourself that you are a good person, even though you're trans. You deserve nice things, and you deserve to have people in your life who support you. Try and find affirmations that work for you. They don't have to be anything major. For example, if "I love myself" is too strong for you right now, you can say "I like myself" or "I am doing the best I can."
I hope things look up for you soon. I can't even imagine the immense amount of stress you must be under. Keep your head up.
Take care,
Dez
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| Yesterday 10:06 AM |
| Ballsack |
Being Trans is Honestly Really Difficult
It's not really news that being trans is difficult tbh. I live in a county where LGBTQ+ people are very much oppressed, this is a fact I have been aware of from the moment I realised I'm trans, which was when I was around 8 years old give or take. So for most of my formative years I have been very stressed and anxious, two of my greatest fears are not being able to live as the person I truly am and also conversion therapy. Ever since I was 11 I've been trying to plan for a way to escape the country. My dad isn't really a prominent figure in my life, he's kinda abusive and mostly doesn't take things seriously, he's only good for financing my education and feeding me and I think that's enough. But my mother is very invested in my life, she doesn't want me to repeat her old mistakes and also wanted me to live an "easier life" even if it means burying down who I am. Now, I could sacrifice art, I could sacrifice my relationships, but I don't know if I can sacrifice myself. My big plan, ever since I was 11, was to move abroad, somewhere that is easier for a trans person to live so maybe somewhere like Canada or some Europe countries, and find a way to send money to my mom without her knowing where I am and who I've become. After researching, I think escaping the country will be easier as long as I could accumulate enough funds and connections to said country. However, the weight and fear of being found out has only grown over the years. I really thought I was slick, but my mom has lied to my face and told me that my ex friend and her father laughed about how I'm a lesbian (I'm not, though I'm bi) and she had also said to my face, I think twice, that she'd kill herself if I'm a lesbian. Of course I don't want her to kill herself, but I fear that she would take an more drastic measure and either force me to marry someone or jus straight up throw me into a conversion therapy. It feels like a ticking time bomb and I need to gather my resources quick if I want to survive, especially since I found how dependant I am to her. I wish I have someone to talk to, but I can't talk about this to anyone
What if they snitch about me behind my back? Cops are no good (obviously) and therapists would be the first one to send me to conversion therapy. Still, I've been trying to save for therapy except the therapist is specialised for queer patients which might be safer? I don't know man, it's just that after maybe 10 or so years of being under extreme stress it's starting to catch up and I don't think I can even survive long enough to be free. I know need to find at least a community of sorts with people that understands how I feel, but everytime I think of opening up to other people in real life I just get so scared. It's not good to show vulnerability especially if it can be used against you to harm your life forever.
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