hi Amp; I can relate to your post... that's exactly how I feel at the moment; I'll think of things to say and then freeze up in conversation. Even online it's pretty hard to get words out. I wish I had a better mind and perhaps more fortunate circumstances to hone my mind as a child. I'm beyond saving now I think; not gonna turn up to work this week as an experiment to see what happens when I do what I want or more like when I don't do what I don't want to do. I will pussy out at the last minute and go to work and feel crushed for doing so.

I used to be into playing the piano and was fairly artistic but I don't finish anything now.

Hope you're doing better than you were on your post a while back and I hope the grumblings of a 22 yr old don't depress you too much. good luck with your life and mind. feel free to give me a pm if you wanna, I know I've not really sold my personality with this post ;D but I can listen quite well