You know Craig, I'd keep talking with God about this. I don't wanna be mean or hurtful b/c I have a different view than you on this but doesn't mean I think your a bad guy ya know?
To be honest I've never had that struggle, loving God and praising Jesus but b/c of who I am I can't go to church without thinking people will be freaked out. I'd talk to someone maybe like a Christian Counselor but thats my opinion. It definitly sounds like your stuck. I'm sorry for that.
I wish you luck!

Yeah, it's something I struggle with alot. Not listening and then tripping over my action. He'll tell you, honestly I didn't feel like I was writing that to you. It just flowed right through into that message.

Hi suniesha!!

I hope you're having a super duper day!!

I appreciate you taking the time to let me know what you think.

You just might be right!! Then again.... lol

You know something? Finding the truth isn't as easy it it looks!! But then - we are promised that IF we seek it - we shall find it. I think what I need to do is spend more time LISTENING to God. I don't do that enough. I should at least give Him a chance to say something!! lol

GREAT BIG HUG
Craig!!

Hey Craig, I'm posting my answer here 'cause I don't wanna make an argument. I believe when John was saying that, he was saying that the people who are saved and raptured that they see a new Heaven and a new Earth w/out sin just like God had intended in the first place. The lake of fire is most likely going to still be there b/c there's no new hell.. It'd still be the same hell, meant for torment. Not to sound like I'm happy about that or anything.
Just my opinion on the topic.

Have a good day,
God bless!

It is something to think about... But it's so hard and I suck..

I'm trying but gosh!!! This is dumb, I hate it.

I see what you're saying.. Its not like I really want to feed it. Its just things building up to the point where I think it's fine to cut and find to think about suicide.