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I'm not... at all. I fucking cut last night and I didn't mean to but I couldn't take it. Everyone is trying to protect me from the one guy I want to date right now. And they keep telling me that he will hurt me and I won't be able to love him, but the only thing I need protecting from is MYSELF.
....Jack was trying to pursuade me into not going out with him.
...Cody has been practically harassing me about it. Telling me that he won't let me date him and he will never talk to me again if I do and Cody's the only guy that will ever love me, and that I'm too fucked up for anyone... he brought Matthew into it and said that matthew would be so crushed if I went out with Connor but... but Matthew doesn't care about me. At all. I can't even text him without crying and panicking.
I just.... I see things. They don't want me to be happy, or healthy, they want me alone and vulnerable and I can't tell anyone why... you're basically the only person that knows what I did last night....
I just feel lost.

...alright :/

The doctor unfortunately said I have to take medication now
It's not really such a big deal, but hopefully I won't have to continue using it for too long.

My day consisted of tennis, pizza and sleep
And unfortunately I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow, which I'm kind of dreading at the moment.
Did you do anything interesting today?

Haha wow! Congratulations
Sounds like your life is pretty perfect at the moment!

Hey Jordi
I'm on school holidays so life has been pretty great
I haven't really done much though besides shopping and dancing, but it's still been really nice to take a break from schoolwork.
Anyways, what about you? How have you been lately?

That sounds nice. How did you meet her then?

That's great! Congrats Aw, that's sweet. Is she from school?

I'm good I just woke up and now I'm having some coffee. How about you?

Ah, cool.