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Sorry i just wanted to get that of my. Chest so bad

Ahh i feel so worthless today at school i had a panic attack i was so scared and just run outa the grade it was so scary i was stuck by myself no one cared or wanted to help me when the people from my grade at school saw me later they looked at me like i was a freak and it all happend cause they were forcing me to read somthing out loud omg im such a nothing

Something else a few of like family mambers came around tonight for dinner kinda like a party im such a loser i said hi to them and my aunty tried to hug me like a greet i just hesitated and it made me feel like nothing inside like i cant hug someone with out getinv freaked out or thinking down on myself i hate myself i hate me
Then my uncle asked me hows school i answerd with an akward wishper like yer i think they all just gave up they just left me alone after that it made me feel like a freak

Then when we had dinner i said i was full so i didnt have to sit with everyone else i didnt even eat today dinner was my only meal and i didnt have it cause im such a loser i cant even eat with my only family because im scared they will judge me

I want to cut i want to cry i want to just dissapear i wish i was invisible so i couldnt be seen i judged i hate this i wanna be with you when i talk to you i actually feel like i deserve to be alive like im liked by someone

Thanks for the welcome. I just hope to see if anyone gives me some answers to stuff since I wasn't sure where else to go

I dont pretend.....I only pretend in school

A couple weeks ago, if you asked me if I was happy, i would say no. This week if you asked me, i would say yes. Just talking to the most wonderful person in the whole entire world makes me happy

Heyy how are you doin?

hey ok im so sorry ive just been having a few troubles lately and plus im just scared to reply im soo sorry

New student coming to my school in my grade soon. How come we're getting a new student, but I cant switch schools???? Life sucks most of the time

Why? Why am I still here? I should be dead, I should have killed myself already. I don't know how or why I kept going. But now I have a reason to live, a person to write letters too. Sometimes I feel like I should be dead, but then I think of that one person and I smile, no fake smiles there

No problem, lovely to meet you x