So TH has been the first to wish me a happy birthday. It's 12:14 am, and I am now (regrettably, or happily - depends on how you look at it)eighteen years old............Alright, time for bed..............

Hello All

So I'm a bit confused about something. Background info: There's this guy that lives down the street from me, who I haven't really ever talked to. Just a guy I've known since 2nd grade, but wasn't his friend or anything. Just another kid in my class. Okay so for the past four nights in a row, I've had a dream with him in it. The first night, he didn't say anything, he was just there. (like a background character.) Next night, he said a couple things, and was present...

To Catie (a girl who sits at the lunch table with Tyler and I that said "Woah, it actually talked!" when I was having a conversation with Tyler's friend Meg, a really nice girl):
You are a total bitch. Seriously. I have a name. I'm not just "Tyler's girlfriend." I'm a she, not an "it." What you said to me the other day was the meanest thing I've heard in a long, long time. So what if I don't talk much? I am me and a fairly quiet person. Not everyone can be loud...

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...gotta love 'em. Every time I whip out the old video camera and search for dust collecting tapes, I prepare myself for uncontrollable laughter. (things like my brother dancing in his underwear to "Tequila", or the four of us kids jumping on furniture and breaking lamps while our parents were on a date...just to name a few) I love the feeling I get when I see my old favorite toy (for me it was my bumble ball) or a shirt I used to wear all the time. I think that's the feeling of Home,...

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Another fucking day came.... Hate in the air, disgust is ruling ,cold war and every 1 is putting every 1 down........we are now back to the normal days of *crappy shut* family after the 3rd world ....house war.
Gotta class in couple of hours another teacher will be let down another nagging wave to scramble my numbness.....most of my meaningless words r being spilled just as balnk and empty as my soul is...no soul, no life, no family , no friends..... I mean c'mon I barely see any of them...

Feeling good these days, much much better than usual. Hope to keep it up. I think the fog's finally going away. That, however, made me to to one conclusion that's being very annoying right now and won't leave my head. So I'll write it out.

Okay. No melodramatics. Trying to be honest. One. Two. Three. Go.

I can't let go of the past. Never have I thought I'd be experiencing a problem I've always looked down upon. I've always disrespected the issue of not being able to let...

I've been getting into these "zombie" like states more and more often at school. Almost everyday I doze off in my classes or I'll stare off into nothing for the entire period. It's so hard for me to focus on school these days, especially with graduation right around the corner. The things they're teaching are either things I already know or just seem so irrelevant. (Who really needs to know what the square root of pi is?) Most of the time I'll just put my head down and let my mind wander...