Oh my, its been a while since I've wrote on here. I don't even remember the last time I did. Guess it doesn't really matter.. All I know is that there has been a lot that has happened since, and I feel that if I write it on here where none of my "friends" know where to find it, then it wont some how get turned around and bite me in the ass. I don't know where to start with my problems. I don't quite know if I should write them, but I have to get them off my chest and I'm finding I don't...

So, I went back towhat I do best...The things that I stopped for a bit, but I can't handle this anymore...It scares me because I feel like I'm doing so many things wrong. I'm depressed, and I don't want to sleep. But I have to sleep so I can get through work. My best friend lives with me, and she told me that I need professional help, so she is pretty much saying that I'm fucked up in the head. And sorry if my mood changes all of a sudden...I didn't sleep much last night. I really don't know what...