So i cut. And cut. and cut. Coz im stupid. So im going to keep cutting. Whats the point in trying? Just makes me feel worse when i fail. and i will fail. Coz secretly i dont really want to succeed. Maybe if i self destruct enough my family will give up on me. I think they already have. But they need me now so they will pretend they care until i do what they want. What will happen to me then?

Im angry

Im sad

Im lost

IM HURTING SO DAMN MUCH...

Bad night. feeling so weak. tired. Lonely. Just want to fade away. Dont want to be here. Sick of feeling like this. Im falling.