I know people say they love me
I know it should help and it kind of does
But how do I know they're telling the truth?
People lie all the time
Why should it be any different with me?

Shit

I know I'm nothing special, I know I'm the same as everyone else, an equal.
But this is such shit

Wish I was never born.
Wish I could escape.
Why would anyone want to have a child?
Why would they want to cause pain and suffering?...

So, saw Nolan in Drama today.
We sat in the back seats of our auditorium (stage) place, by ourselves.
He said he knew about me not eating. So, I told him I ate today, but I also said I'd binge it.
He said he knew I wrote goodbye letters to everyone. So, I told him, I used to cut.
He started tearing up. Yepp, I'm positive tears came out of his eyes. It made me sick to my stomach. He hasn't cried since April, he isn't a very emotional man. He explained to me that everyone...