Need to cry
Need to cut
Need to die
Need to learn French
Can't learn French
Had days to do it but not had time
Test on wednesday, still know none...
What am I meant to do?
I have so much revision material and none of them work...
Music,
Re-reading,
Writing...
I just can't do it and I can't fail...
Crying...
Can't stop crying...
The stress..
The pain...
My life falling apart,
Never been so...

If I manage to get to school I'll have to spend the day pretending I'm fine. I can't let him know I'm still struggling, I have to be nice, I have to be considerate and I have to pretend things are getting better.

If I can make it till Tuesday then I can talk to Pete. Not that I'll know what to say.

I saw Nolan today.

I tried to commit suicide yesterday. My bestfriend Blake saved me.
So, today Blake demanded I got his house. My other friend Zach, had invited me to go to Generals (food place), and I refused, I told him, and Blake, that if I go there and see Nolan there, I will cry. I will break down.

Blake didn't listen.

I got to Blake's house, and we went Generals. I couldn't go any where else, and I love Blake, so I went.
I saw...