Feel lonely, tired and down
I know how to smile but I can't seem to do it
Dreading tomorrow
Can't stand being in a room with people who hate me all day
It's hell! It makes me want to die!
People say it'll get better
People say not to worry about them
How?
These people, I see them everyday, I share lessons everyday, I have to face them every fucking day!
I hate it I hate life
I don't see why I ended up with all these
Maybe I'm too...

Today was just horrible.
Nolan hates me.
Nolan hates me.
Nolan hates me.
Nolan hates me.
I'll never be pretty enough.
Skinny enough.
Nolan hates me.
Nolan hates me.
Nolan hates me.


With everything going on I became overwhelmed. I stopped eating, gor 2 weeks now, with little food, just for people to see..I binge it mostly. I cut deeper into my thighs. Not enough blood, though. So, I cut my stomach. I was so close...