Today. Monday, Novemember 14, 2011
Was a weird day. I almost forgot I was alive for awhile, it felt good. I put on a mask && I really felt like was conpletely different person. It's weird, really. I find myself being myself around Travis. It is completely unnatural. He's my buddie. But. He kissed my cheek today. It was odd. But I ignored it. Haha. I like being buddies with him. He makes me feel like I can be my true, real self and he will still accept me. But everyonee thinks I like...

I just realized today that im failing 3 of my classes. I have an F and 2 D's. The F is in math which is normally my best class. My parents are going to kill me. I wish it was literal. My grades were fine for the first quarter of the year. But now they are dropping again. I might have my phone or internet taken away because of it. Id rather they take away my phone. I couldnt live with them taking away my internet. I hope they don't.

I was doing good with not cutting i...