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Posted November 15th 2011 at 02:18 AM by Hopeyyy
Today. Monday, Novemember 14, 2011
Was a weird day. I almost forgot I was alive for awhile, it felt good. I put on a mask && I really felt like was conpletely different person. It's weird, really. I find myself being myself around Travis. It is completely unnatural. He's my buddie. But. He kissed my cheek today. It was odd. But I ignored it. Haha. I like being buddies with him. He makes me feel like I can be my true, real self and he will still accept me. But everyonee thinks I like him more then a friend, but I don't. He is just like my bestfriend.
I know I can tell Travis anything and he accpets it, andhe won't ignore it, he'll help me, while everyone else just shrug it off.
I can't wait for tomorrow though. It will ve truly intersting, it is Annas birthday tomorrow, and I will not be able to spebd it with her
But I am staying up 'till midnight to be the first one to text her Hapy Birthday. Also, tomorrow is the talent show. I am not in it, but I am helping, which mean I will be at school all day, probably 'till 8. I love that. Even more, I get to try a new mask. This mask will be giggly. Like a "high" mask. I will be laughing so hard tomorrow. I am determined. Fuck not being happy. Fuck wallowing. Screw my tears. Screw everyone who wants to see me fall.
I'm gling to stand up with my shoes tied.
Was a weird day. I almost forgot I was alive for awhile, it felt good. I put on a mask && I really felt like was conpletely different person. It's weird, really. I find myself being myself around Travis. It is completely unnatural. He's my buddie. But. He kissed my cheek today. It was odd. But I ignored it. Haha. I like being buddies with him. He makes me feel like I can be my true, real self and he will still accept me. But everyonee thinks I like him more then a friend, but I don't. He is just like my bestfriend.
I know I can tell Travis anything and he accpets it, andhe won't ignore it, he'll help me, while everyone else just shrug it off.
I can't wait for tomorrow though. It will ve truly intersting, it is Annas birthday tomorrow, and I will not be able to spebd it with her
But I am staying up 'till midnight to be the first one to text her Hapy Birthday. Also, tomorrow is the talent show. I am not in it, but I am helping, which mean I will be at school all day, probably 'till 8. I love that. Even more, I get to try a new mask. This mask will be giggly. Like a "high" mask. I will be laughing so hard tomorrow. I am determined. Fuck not being happy. Fuck wallowing. Screw my tears. Screw everyone who wants to see me fall.I'm gling to stand up with my shoes tied.
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