Sat in the internet cafe in college. Debating whether or not to have a hot chocolate and something to eat to see if it wakes me up any. Emailed Frank to tell him I was in but just not in class and he came down to see me to make sure I was okay and not having any problems with people in the class or the work we're doing. It's really good how supportive my tutors are being over my lack of motivation to go into class. I'm meeting with support this afternoon so hopefully I can talk to them about it...

I can't take this.
I have been single. And sure,now, nothing is wrong.
That's what it should be anyway...
But I want a guy.
I know, I'm waiting.
Waiting for it to "just happen"
But I'm afraid.
I am absolutely terrified....
That I am going to end up alone.
I wish when I had Bryan I had such knowledge I have now..
Then Bryan and I could have been perfect.
But that is all over now.
Alex is over.
Nolan...